I'm sitting here in my school's library in running shorts, hooded jacket, and Herbal Essences scented hair. No make up. Completely frazzled... but clean, because I showered before coming. Hence the Herbal Essences scented hair.
I just printed my last two assignments of the semester! These last few weeks have been CRAMMED with different projects. Not to mention the family that I am needed to run... lol. It's been crazy. Things have suffered because of it (running!), but I'm glad to say that after I sit through class for the next 3 hours, I will be DONE with this semester... with 4.0 in tact (hopefully!).
So I'll have some time to wind down...
...right before I wind back up again.
You see, in about 8 weeks, WE ARE FINALLY MOVING BACK TO OUR HOUSE! I appreciate all of you who have stuck with me through all the whining (it was really bad in all of the posts marked in the year 2011) and all of the tears and confusion. I feel like this is one of the last pieces of the puzzle in getting back to where I want to be.
We got to come back to St. Louis last August... and this July, we will finally be home.
The house we built and bought in 2008 when we were still engaged (I still remember referring to Jake as my Beyonce -- finance, Beyonce, you get it).
The house were we brought baby Logan home in June 2009.
The house that caused us financial issues when I stopped working.
The house that we wanted to sell so bad when we had to move for Jake's work.
The house we ended up renting out because we couldn't sell it for the amount we needed to (go economy!).
The house I ended up resenting for a long period of time...
Happily ever after to a nightmare...
...and back again.
I'M SO EXCITED TO BE GOING BACK TO THAT HOUSE!
These last 2.5 years have taught me so much about myself, my relationships, and the world around me. That spoiled, clueless, a thousand other like adjectives 23 year old from 2008 would not even recognize this 28 year old sitting at this computer screen. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
I believe that life just gives it to you when you need it. Scratch that.
God gives it to you when you need it. And that cuts both ways. He gives you the "bad" stuff when you need it. I needed it to learn and grow. I needed it to understand what is important.
I NEEDED IT. And now I feel like He's giving me some of the good stuff. It's such a humbling feeling and experience, to write about it -- I just find my words don't describe it correctly. Funny that I stumbled on this subject while typing in the library waiting for my class to start... it's something I'll revisit in the future, I'm sure.
So... I'm going to wind down the next few days. Jake's big 2-9 is on Friday. We'll be going to the Cardinals game that night, and Logan will be going to Grandma's. Should be a good time for all! :) I'll try to give myself a week or two before I start to anxiety-out/wind up again. Another move! You think I'd be a pro at it by now, right?
Here's to a good wind down for all who need it!
And I'll leave with these: